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February 9, 2022February 14, 2022

A GIF from a screen capture on January 24, 2022  at 5 pm ET of SHAWNE MICHAELAIN HOLLOWAY, https://iwouldvesaidgoodbyeif.ithoughtyouloved.me , 2021

February 9–14, 2022
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“[i would’ve said goodbye if i thought you loved me] is an unflinching reckoning with the irreparable: Can we truly “let go” in the wake of a rupture? How does one recover from loss, and its accumulation, other than by inhabiting it? What does it take to give oneself over to grief? With these questions in mind, I understand the three screens, as well as the bubbles and text that they contain, as a set of layers, each one necessarily encrypting the next.” – Camille Bacon

A five day series of emails featuring writing and media, [ E N | C L O S I N G ] features responses by artists to SHAWNÉ MICHAELAIN HOLLOWAY’s exhibition and web project i would’ve said goodbye if i thought you loved me.

Curated by the artist and Camille Bacon, audiences can sign up to receive one email per day starting February 9th and through February 14th, featuring a different artist speaking to both the themes of the exhibition, and to Camille Bacon’s writing on HOLLOWAY’s work. Artists include Cy X, Natalie Jasmine Harris, and zakkiyyah najeebah dumas-o’neal. The final day will feature a jointly written letter by Bacon and HOLLOWAY.

By signing up, you consent to receive one email per day between February 9 through February 14 to the email address you sign up with. Please check your spam folder if you do not see the email in your inbox. Emails will be sent out near midnight. Sign up by 8 pm ET on February 9 to receive the emails on a daily schedule between February 9 and 14. Audience members who sign up after February 9 will receive the emails the following week, between February 16 – 21.

You can view and learn more about SHAWNÉ MICHAELAIN HOLLOWAY’s exhibition here.


SHAWNÉ MICHAELAIN HOLLOWAY is a new media artist and poet. Through works of video installation, software, and real-time performance, her work often critically engages the technical language of instruction, especially the aesthetics and mechanics of practices from queer feminist BDSM communities, to direct viewers to read, play, or listen their way through narratives that guide them in and out of visceral memories, asking them to confront intense emotions like desire, shame, or regret, and to employ them as mechanisms to navigate through and/or away from abuses of power. She has spoken and exhibited work internationally in spaces like The New Museum (NYC), The Kitchen (NYC), The Time-Based Art Festival (Portland), Institute of Contemporary Arts (London), Hebbel am Ufer HAU (Berlin), and NTS Radio (London). SHAWNÉ was a 20-21 Leslie-Lohman Museum of Art Queer Theatre & Performance Resident as well as a resident at Portland Institute for Contemporary Art’s Creative Exchange Lab.

Camille Bacon is a Chicago-based critic and writer who recently graduated from Smith College in Northampton, MA, and is crafting a “sweet Black writing life,” as inspired by the words of poet Nikky Finney.

CY X (they/we) is a black queer non-binary storyteller and cyber witch merging sound, video art, installation, and performance. Their practice is grounded in the art of synthesis: truth generation and sound generation which is used to create portals that may aid us in exploring black queer futures and abolitionist possibilities. Fusing art and technology with the practice of witchcraft, they use spells, rituals, and alchemic practices as modes of activation. Cy earned a BA in Film and Media Studies from Colorado College and a Masters Degree from New York University’s Interactive Telecommunications Program.

Natalie Jasmine Harris is a Black queer filmmaker from Maryland currently based in New York City. She received her BFA from NYU’s Tisch School of the Arts in May 2020. Her work spans narrative, documentary, and experimental forms but is centered around a mission to tell stories that capture coming-of-age experiences, showcase Black joy, and reimagine liberation for marginalized communities. Natalie’s most recent short film “Pure” received The 2020 Directors Guild of America’s Student Film Award and completed a film festival run that included over 40 festival screenings worldwide. The film received commendations from several film festivals that include ABFF, Outfest, The British Film Institute, The Pan African Film Festival, and many more. After placing as a Finalist in The 2021 American Black Film Festival’s HBO Short Competition, “Pure” was acquired by HBO and is now streaming on HBOMax. Natalie is currently adapting the concept behind “Pure” into a feature-length film of the same name that has received support from SFFILM, The Gotham (formerly known as IFP), and The Outfest Screenwriting Lab.

zakkiyyah najeebah dumas o’neal makes work to further understand how the specificity of her own lived experiences are connected to historical and contemporary movements that involve embodied knowledge production. She explores this through social portraiture, video assemblage, collage, drawing, and found images. She seeks to reinforce a different kind of gaze (and gazing) which she processes through empathy, desire, love, queer identity, family, intimacy, illegibility, and poetics. Within her projects there’s an overlying theme of trying to make sense of what and who she belongs to.
Ultimately, she intends for her work to encourage ways of being and feeling beyond the systems we inhabit. zakkiyyah has been included in numerous group exhibitions and has had several solo exhibitions at Mana Contemporary, Blanc Gallery, Indiana University, and South Bend Museum of Art.
Her work has been presented in various forms at Museum of Contemporary Art Chicago, NADA, The Art Institute of Chicago, The August Wilson African American Cultural Center, Chicago Humanities Festival, DePaul University, and Harvard Graduate School of Design to name a few. She has also curated exhibitions at spaces such as Chicago Art Department, Blanc gallery and Washington Park Arts Incubator at the University of Chicago. She was recently an Artist in Residence at Arts and Public Life at University of Chicago and an Artist in Residence at Indiana University in Bloomington, IN. zakkiyyah is a Co-founder of CBIM (Concerned Black Image Makers): a collective of Black artists, thinkers, and curators that prioritize shared experiences and concerns by lens based artists of the Black diaspora.

This program was funded in part by the Andy Warhol Foundation for the Visual Arts and Humanities New York with support from the National Endowment for the Humanities.

Banner image: A GIF from a screen capture on January 24, 2022  at 5 pm ET of SHAWNE MICHAELAIN HOLLOWAY, https://iwouldvesaidgoodbyeif.ithoughtyouloved.me , 2021


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